Chapter 14: Sushi guy continues

Saturday 15th May 2010: Sushi Guy's Bday party

It was sushi guys 21st bday in town at 8.30pm. I had work from 1 until 6 and far man it was pouring hardcore rain when i got to work. but luckily it cleared up before the night started yaay^^. At work i drank a big can of Red Bull cos man i needed the eneregy to stay awake for the party aye. i finished drinking it in half an hour and walked around with Fia trying to find a gift for him. But i ened up not buying anything until after work. O.M.Gosh when i was walking around with fia i was texting him as well and i said i dont know what to buy for you and he said its ok you dont need to, speninding time with you is enough. And i said But i want to something for you. And he said, Well what do you want to buy. And i said, I dont know. And he said, see you dont need to buy for me. And i said, i want to, Then he said, ok, just give me a kiss. I said, uhh...where then? and he said, anywhre, i chose gift u choose where. I couldn't reply bak cos i had to go back to work. I ended up buying him chocolate Ferreo Roche sumfn or rather chocloates at the last minute. Had korean for dinner before geting to the place at around 9. The place was called Beligum bar i think its called Occidental . Got asked for my ID lol. Showed him my passport cos i dont have my drivers liscense yet..i know so slack haha. It was a small place, food was nice though. Had Ice Cream and Mussells- the onle with the lemon. I didnt drink any alchol that night though cos the red bull mustv gotten to me aye, i was shaking a little once in a while, so now im not going to be drink Red bull ever again. I saw him and gave him the gift. we talked a little then he had to go and greet other people. I chatted to some of the OCF peole, theyre the AU chrsitan life group, very nice, funny people lol. A few guys goes to AUT, so i might go and join the life group there. This guy from my church came up to me and he was giving me this look saying, I know something is up between you and sushi guy. but i pretended i didnty know what he was on about and made him tell me what he is thinking but he didnt. Throughout the tnight he kept giving me that look lol, but i just ignored him. We took photos and there was a live band playing so it was hard to talk to them, but far this lady started dancing hardcore aye, but she was kinda biggish lol. The guy playing the double bass was pretty good, he stood on top fo it while playing, very good haha. Overall it was a fun night :) It was around mdnight and my bro has to drive 2 people back home, so on my way back to my bros car, there was sooo many teengers around aye. Oh the place was near that fountain place in High Street, and man the guys were running and syaing Oh we should pee in that corridor inside that building aye. But then they couldn't go in so they peed in the alleyway as well as the streets, gosh it was FREAKY AS!!!!!!!!!! DISGUSTING and DISTURBING  as well. UGH!! GROSS!!! Luckily we got in to the car before they finished peeing. And my bro was about to start driving and one car wanted to ask us if we had smokes, but my bro was saying Oh nah im all goods aye, and laughed cos he was a bit tipsy lol. And yes i know he was driving. But he drank like 4 glasses of water befpre leaving. I got homre around 12.30 and sushi guy txtd me asking if i enjyed the night and that it was great to see me there. i was like yea of course i had a great time and yea of course i wouldnt miss your party :) We talked a little bit, he was going to Mission Bay to take some photos, but i fell asleep afterwards. I woke up again at 2.30 and i replied back to his last txt and we talked a little then he wanted to know my answer whether i would go out with him., but i said il talk to him in person at his party. But i didnt end up being able to talk to him so he asked me again what i wanted to tell him at night before i went to sleep what my asnwer is and i said i want to be 110% sure before we start dating. He fell aslep. I couldnt get back to sleep until 3.30, during that time i cried, i dont know why, but i cried. I started talking to God, telling him everything, even though he knows whats going on. I wanted to be sure what im doing is right. I stopped crying after i finished talking to him, and i just closed and tried listening with my heart. I had a thought, but it made me think that i should fall in love with God first before i can fall in love with anyone else. Cos my brother told me that when you are dating, its best to find a christian and that as you guys are together,. your love for God would grow stronger each step of the way. I know that his love for god is very very strong, but mine is not as much. So i guess i should continue my journey with God and grow strnger in love with him before i can love again.. After that i managed to get my head cleared before falling asleep.

Sunday 16th May 2010: Avoidance

I had church in the morning at 9am, but i didnt have enough sleep. Sushi guy txtd me in the morning and he ended up asking how many percent i like him. But i didnt txt back. I saw him at church by the time i got there, but he was at the front. The guy who suspected something about me and sushi guy came and sat in front of me, he turned around and gave me that smirk on his face again and i just smiled. We both were soo sleepy aye. We couldnt stop yawning thorugh out the service. The service was pretty good, talked about the holy spirit that lives in us when we accepts Jesus Christ as our Lord and Svaiour. Awesome message for the day. After service i avoided him cos it was all shy to talk to him after what i textd him lol. So i went home with my da, and later he textd me at work. I replied back saying, oh sorry i didnt get ot check my phone until now and he thought i was upset at him cos we didnt get to talk much last night. But i was like No way, im not upset at you lol. i can neva be. And he said oh thank gudness then. I told him i liked him about 65% and he said he likes me around 70%+. He sadi every time we hang out he likes me more and when we dont talk or text he cant help it but think about me all the time. I told him that it happens to me as well lol, but its not as strong as his one lol. He agreed that we acted like a couple on fri and i told him sorry, il keep my distance but he said that its ok, he like dit that why he didnt hesistate. If he doesnt like me he wouldve backed off. He said that when i was resting on his shoulders he wondered if i did that to every guy i hang out and i was like No way, i neva do that ussuali, just cos that day i was reeeali sleepy lol. i dont remeber what else happened that night haha. heres the sticker photo i promised to upload.